wake the dawn and ask her why a dreamer dreams

because our high school life is at it's end;treasured moments replayed

2008-10-09T14:09:49Z

bye bye sjc!(: im gonna miss you [ not really maybe just a bit? ]

so tmr's the last time im gonna see and be in my class of secondary 5 benevolence.
its been a hell of a year,but it's finally coming to an end.our whole 5 years in this bloody school.
haha.[ okay so for me its 4 years ] anywayssss.. i know many ppl aint gonna come scool tmr anyway.
haha(: lallalaa.

and after all these years,i thought i'd never miss sjc.but come to think of it.i will miss wearing the uniform and
having retardly fun talks with everyone.oh well,singapore ain't so big anyways,so i guess i'll see everyone again
sometime.hahhaa.

tmr = last day of school = O levels are coming = natasha should seriously start mugging! : /

because you taught me so much and more,
of how to live,laugh and soar.
our memories we share,
the fun,the loves,the care.
the classroom rants,
the gossip chants.
the cam whoring sessions,
the life long lessons.
the times we joke,
the times we covered ourselves in books.
the shopping sprees,
the splashing at seas.
our tanning dates,
from early morning till afternoon late.
our catch up talks,
of never ending stories; with an open lock.
our late night calls,
that till late to sleep we'd fall.

but as all memories have their love,
the sad ones should so be savoured.
so for comforts at night,
for times we cried.
for insecurity,
for the mad insanity.
for the trust lost,
for the bonds that were at cost.
for lost of our loves,
for the bends of our curves.
for emotions we try to breech,
for trying to share them; to ease our grief.
for always being there
through happy and sad,
for the times you try to make things better
when things got so bad.

and for all these memories and more,
that showed me what friends are really made for.
so in fate we met,i do believe.
the friendship i've kept, to last me eternity(:

with lots of love,
me <3

okay so i know the poem sounds rather weird.but i dont know how to make it
sound any better.sorry. anyway, love you all truckloads!(: mug hard for O's!(:
love love much! <3

skystealer @ 2008-09-07T21:19:00

2008-09-07T13:19:55Z

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now - even if we don't speak often,
please post a comment with a memory of You and I. It can be good or bad, it can be anything you want.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

skystealer @ 2008-08-16T13:07:00

2008-08-16T05:08:16Z

test test

from today

2008-07-19T03:20:31Z

from now on,
this lj will be
80% friends-only and
20% public

tired and more then half of my life is dead.

2008-07-17T09:34:58Z

ahhhh!!! i'm hone at last! yayy!(((:
2.4 was kike a killer i swear! its like the second time ive taken this stupid thing!
my long term mc suppose to last till end of this year okay!stupid school!
hahaha.

anyway,besides almost dying, i am super tired and like i slept for all 3 periods of ss!
>_< sure fail like that alr.hahaha

testing today was okay. lit passage was like wow!not exciting!hahaha
so mild la the text.so conflict.no suspense.its almost too happy!!hahaha
its like the protagonist is like ' wow! yayy i can smell properly!its a maricle!'
haha okay very lame and retarded.but yea!thats whats the passage was about okay!
i was omg?so dumb! )): im never going to buy that book!so boring!

haha.but hey i wrote one whole page ok!for the 2 questions!not bad alr.considering
the story was really the ' lets repeat the points again and again' kind.haha.

mom's coming home soon so i'd better stop her for now.
will try to update as many times as possible.wahahaha((:

let me light up the sky,
light it up for you.
let me tell you why,
i will die for you.

one more month,
i promise.
i'd sort this whole thing out.
i don't want to ruin your life.
its more precious then mine will ever be.

p.s: yayyy! guides study session tmr!((:
super duper yayyy-ness!(:

p.p.s.s: you all better come for pop night kay!
if you dont,
i'll be very sad! ):
haha so must come okay!!must ah!(((:
yayyy!hahaha((:
<3 you guys loads loads!

p.p.p.s.s.s: bernadette! you promise me alr ah!
cannot back down kay!!
cannot ah!i will cry one kay if you dont come!
hahaha((:

the final p.p.p.s.s.s-es:
love you darlings,much much!(:
haha yes yes,im abit insane today.
i think its because of the heat and the sun and my ultra tiredness.
haha. ooooo. lets make an equation out of it!hahahaha!

heat + sun + ultra tiredness + lack of hot green tea + [ - sweets for many hours]
= a very very very very insanely retarded natasha!

hahaha so cool huh?wow!hahhaa.okay okay, natasha enough enough!
haha((:

for you,for me,for us,for we.something we might not even be.

2008-07-15T10:36:10Z

let me protect you,
i know i can.
let me make your world whole,
i try.
let me bring you smile and laughs,
that i am confident i can do.

will you give me a chance?
if oneday,all these,
i ask of you?

[does hemake you high?
make you real?
does he make you cry,
does he know the way you feel?
love is all around you,
your universe is full.
but in my world,
there is only you.]

haha.just change all the he into she can alr.
hahahhaa(: not say i very like chopstick right?
more like a bendable ruler!hahahaa.
ok thats retarded.hahaha(:

because i want to prove to you i'm strong to hold my feelings

2008-07-02T11:10:07Z

exams are coming soon.
i've so called started to mug alr.
i swear i'm gonna marry my 10 points on results day
if its the last thing i do!(:

okay, to these people and i think,if you read this maybe your instincts will
let you know who is who.

anway,here goes.

i know we've drifted alot this year,
and please know that i'm not the least bit happy about it okay.
how can i be?
i'm trying really.i hope you see it.
i really miss all of you.really.
but i cant dwell on it can i now?
i'm moving on. but i wanted to move on with you on the same path.
not with you and be seperated by a huge big river.
but i guess, i have to be happy with what i've got.

anyway, 'gw' is really kind.really nice.gives me wake up calls and
talk to me till late.though somehow i wish it was 'elli' doing all those.
haha.wild imagination i've got.thinking that '' actually might like me even though
'' 'rgted' me. hahahaa. maybe after o's ''ll be nicer to me.haha.
no i'll so 'elli' that i am smart. that i can get my 10 points.
even though i dont know 'elli' as well as i know 'gw' even though i know
'elli' longer then 'gw'. which i swear is really sad. but its okay!

as long as 'elli' wishes me 'happy birthday before 'gw' but i swear that might
be impossible..sighhh...

my birthday's on youth day.its a holiday. [hint hint 'elli' if you do read my lj!]

anyway, my heart can only fit one special someone! so i declare myself,
single but unavailable!haha.
[im really sorry 'gw' but i just cant make for you a bento!
because the only one who i'll make a bento for is 'elli'!((: ]

no, but i swear, i'm not letting stupid things affect my grades anymore!
i am going to sp.and i am going into applied drama and phycology!((:

if i could be so bold as to ask,
if you could just listen to this one small request of mine.
and so here is the small tiny request;
i actually, do hope with all my heart,
that you could,maybe, allow me to continue to
have these little feelings for you.
i promise,it wont do you any harm.please?

(((((:
haha

because i am sorry too.

2008-06-19T07:31:34Z

I WANNA GO OUT!
HAHA.I'M GONNA EAT A TUB FULL OF ICE CREAM TODAY!
I DONT CARE!HAHAHA((:

Are you stubborn?

yea.

How do you feel about your ex?

he's ok?

What are you looking forward to?

school.

Who are the third and eighteenth texts in your phone from?

regina and regina.haha(:

What do you usually do first in the morning?

check my phone.

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?

nothing.

What are you currently doing?
this and listening to music.

Have you told someone you loved them today?
no.

Any plans for tomorrow?

go out and study.

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
HELL YEA!OMG. i dont understand them at all.

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
not really.right now i just want to be left alone.

Are you going to be home alone tonight?

no.

When is the last time you saw a movie in theaters?

this week.

How was last week ?

okay i guess.

Whats your best features?

it is not in my place to say.

Do you have a best friend?

yea.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

yea.

What do you want most right now?

to be stronger in mind and heart.hahaha

What do you carry with you at all times?
phone

Have you ever written a love letter?

haha yea. in sec 2.

Is someone mad at you right now?

i dont know.

When was the last time you were sick?

i probably am sick.

Money or love ?

i dont know.

What were you doing 15 minutes ago?

posting my first post.

Are you any good at English?

i guess?

Where is your mum at now?

bedroom

Did you dissappoint any one lately?

maybe?

Do you think of your ex's?

not really.

Last branded thing you bought?

top.

You are amazing at?

making myself upset.
haha.

Last person you talk to on the phone?

regina!((:

because this is me, too proud to ever admit

2008-06-19T07:19:45Z

1. Today is:
thrusday

2. I should be:
studying

3. The last text message I received was
from:
someone important maybe.

4. And it said:
something.

5. I am currently pissed off because:
i'm not angry.

6. My cellphone rings and the song
that's playing is:
its always on silent.

7. I would love to see:
the sunset right now.

8. If I could change my last name, it
would be:
some japanese name cos then i'd be japanese(:

9. After work, I love to:
sleep with my music on.

10 . My favorite subject on school is:
pure lit

11. I liked yesterday because:
i'm not sure.

12. But I still sort of didn't because:
i don't know.

13. My favorite song right now would
have to be:
not sure.

14. I sometimes forget to:
feel numb and act cold when i should.

15. I currently have a crush on:
an invisible man(:

16. My favorite number/s would have to
be:
7 and 8.

17. When I'm in a bad mood, it's better
to just:
not talk to me or try to make me laugh.

18. I really can't stand:
alot of things.

20. If I were to get stuck in an
elevator with someone, it would have
to be:
friends?

21. I'd really like to improve my
grades on:
chem and maths.

22 . The last thing that wasn't food
that I bought with my own money is:
tops.

23. The name of the street where I
live is:
jalan sindor.

24. I have never ridden:
a motocycle.

25. If I won the lottery, the first
thing I would do is:
shop

26. One bad habit of mine is:
i think too much.hahaha.

27. I go out to:
make memories(:

you know something.
i'm pretty much very happy today(:

don't ask me why.
i just am.

maybe i should be making this blog 90%
friends only.

ahh! i should have done it at the beginning!
lazy me!haha.

well, this will be the last public post until
i find something worthy of making a post public.
i admire iyani.the reason why i didnt make it friends only was
because of her.
she said she doesn believe in hiding stuff.maybe it was
only jokingly but still.i thought i didnt need to hide anything either.

haha. not that making this friends only i am hiding things,
its not it. i just feel safer?hahah.yea.

i should listen to my dreams sometimes.
especially when its in colour!
sure will have dejar vu! scary!!!
hahaha.

school's starting soon!(>_<)
i haven started doing homework yet!!
diee.haha.
i guess i'll start today.

i'll definately get my 12 points!
no 10 points!
i'll get my 10 points!(:

reginaaa!!! let's mug together one day kay!
hahaha.thanks for yesterday and this morning.
hahaha.
shhhhhh.cannot tell anyone kay!haha((:

i think living a colourful life is much batter then living
a black and white life.haha.
okay for now at least.haha.

-don't kill me!-
(:

random thoughts:
-i need to grow tallerrr!!!
-i want bento and miso soup now!
-i'll definately marry a japanese guy and have
cute japanese kids that i'd dress in cute kimonos
and they'll be running around the house screaming
'oka-san! oka-san!' hahaha.
-i wanna wear a kimono!!!
-i want to go back to school(:

ps:if you see this, i want to say 'thank you'really.
it meant alot.

boku wa kimi ga suki nanda

2008-06-18T09:24:47Z

cos you make me smile like no one else can.

and even through your a basket most of the time.

i dunno why i still love you.but i do.

and oneday i swear, i'll tell you.

but first can you tell me what is on your mind?

cos i have no idea how your brain works.

i miss you though.

[and i swear i'll strangle you if your reason is rubbish
or what on your mind is rubbish.
i will strangle you!really!]

'there is no such thing as accidents'

2008-06-18T05:00:59Z

what the hell are you trying to do to me?
messaging at 4 plus in the morning.
and so zun!just after i got off the phone with regina.

i mean,you even asked me about my date.
of course i lied.but i wanted to make you jealous.
were you?is that why you didnt reply?
or was it because you fell asleep?

you are so hard to figure out.
honestly! ):

and my dream,i dreamt that there was this girl you
liked.pretty,small figured, long haired and all.
that dream is probably more close to reality.

but really,
sometimes i really wonder,
what do you think of me.
or what am i to you.
but most of the time,
i tend to think that you are blind.
to all my hints.
super blind.
or is it you try to avoid it.
to pretend you never notice it.

but whatever it is,
no matter how hard i try to hate you,
i cannot.

i should be shot!
literally!

bang bang-

survival kit

2008-06-17T09:55:34Z

SEVEN PEOPLE YOU WANT TO DO THIS SURVEY
1. WHO
2. Ever
3. Who
4. Wants
5. To
6. DO
7. IT.

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1) the dark
2) insects and spiders
3) When someone very close to you leaves you suddenly.
4) boys
5) love
6) rejection[of any kind]
7) humans

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
1) Music.
2) Shopping
3) books
4) my locket
5) people
6) japanese stuff.
7) sweets and ice cream

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM
1) all 4 boxes of memories
2) Clothes
3) BED
4) bags
5) Books
6) blanket
7) my locket

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1) i'm tired
2) i love the colour orange
3) i am extremely in love with japanese stuff.
4) i am not a chocolate fan
5) i secretly love adventure
6) i hate boys
7) i love fantasies.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1) live in japan[for a year at least!]
2) eat all the food and ice cream and sweets in the world.
3) write a book
4) find the answers to all my many questions.
5) give the secong button of my uniform to the person
that i love.
6) abolish exams
7) i would love to have a big party with everyone that is of
great importance to me.
[at least i'll die happy]

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
1) laugh
2) Play
3) write
4) Sleep
5) Be irritating
6) imagine
7) Watch j dramas all day
[i confirm will be able to do a marathon!(: ]

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T DO
1) Study
2) See someone sad
3) i can't do a cartwheel
4) i can't understand humans
5) i can't seem to grow taller
6) i can't understand politics
7) i can't live without j drama

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
1) hair
2) eys
3) dressing/ sense of style
4) smile
5) personality
6) trust worthy-ness
7) speech/choice of words

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
1) what the hell
2) i am bored
3) haha
4) hello
5) wait can
6) later la!
7) i hate you fkw
[recently i have been saying that alot.hah]

i wont be tricked again.
i'll grow stronger. in heart and in mind.

i wont fall for the same trick twice.
no.i'm not that stupid.

i hate boys.every single one of them.
they have evil hidden deep inside them.

i wont trust boys ever again.
they tear and ruin and break.
thats all they'll ever know.

winning is a matter of calculating it.
only those that are the best pupils of victory
will wiin

a few minutes to learn it,
a lifetime to master it.

thats what its all about; life.
thats all there is.no more and no less.

those who do not see through life and fate,
will eventually die.
then and only then, it will be no one's fault,
but their's.

those who need people.
those who need people around them.
those who trust.
those who trust too easily.
those who are naive.
those who open up too fast or too much to people.

they will all fall into the trap of fate and life.
life and fate are like human eating monsters.
they eat up the weak and wait for the strong to fall.

you were my ecstacy and super hero,now your my numbness and drug

2008-06-17T04:42:57Z

i decided.
i'm gonna put an end to this.

you're gonna disappear from my life.
i'll pretend meeting you never happened.

cos yesterday i cried so much,
numbness conquered me again.
till i realised if this continues,
i'm sure to die.

so thats it.
i'll force my heart to close again.
cos liking you is just so tiring.

whether you msg me by yourself one day,
is up to you.
but don't expect me to be nice.

by then,
i'll be anything but nice to you.

i wont delete the msn history we have.
i won't delete the picture you mad and sent
me online.
i wont delete your project you sent me
for me to see.
i wont delete any of those.
thats,for me, is just curtersy.

theres so much on my mind right now,
but i can't tell you.
because it would ruin your life
and it would ruin mine.

i think simran wrote that(:

because when i try to hate you, i cant.

2008-06-17T04:28:36Z

suddenly when you're slowly disappearing,
i still restless and bored.
whatever i do,i feel no more excitement.
why is this?

you tore my heart open slowly to
the minds of boys.
and i guess i know why i shut my heart
in that area.
because its annoying.
boys, designed by evil and created by fate.

now im even more messed up!
its all your fault!
your fault for opening a forbidden door.
your fault for leaving it open!
your fault your fault!
i hate you!

then after all the sweet words your just gonna
leave me here to figure you out?!
i wish to slap you,shot you,stab you,
kill you.
crush your ego.crush your heart.crush your dreams.
crush your world.

but because i like you,
i am unable to do so.

your such a player!
fkw!
your such a player!

the lyrics that make me think of you[i have no idea why]:

-Gotta get it back to
A back up plan to find you
Start acceleration
Take it back to square one

-All the lyrics that i wrote
Not as smart as the words you spoke
The starlight above my hometown
Aint as bright as the star ive found
Every drawing that i drew
Was never ever as cute as you

-Wishful thinking
Patience shrinking, bliss is far away
North is calling
Now Im falling, at your feet please stay.

- You promise that youd stay
You say you want to go
Your lips provide a shelter for the
Things that I dont know

-Every breath you take you give
Me the burdens bitter taste

because i stupidly fell in love with a devil in disguise

2008-06-15T09:17:27Z

do you know i feel so played with?toyed with?
what happened to your promises.
what happened to your words?

fuck i can't believe i opened my heart a player like you.
promised me and said sweet things to me.

i feel like telling you that i like you,
that i was stupid to fall for you.

i'm really useless sometimes.
i guess.

i wish you would get jealous on wednesday.
but probably i'll be the one feeling sad.
cos it's someone sweeter and nicer and one who calls
me in the middle of the night when i say im scared.
not you.

im honestly sad.

please, say something!
msg me!dont pm me offline!
thats not what i want!
why don't you fucking care anymore??

like last year when my tummy hurt and i was hospitalized.
you were there with me weren't you?
msging all day and all night?
keeping me company!

what happened then?
tell me?!

fuck! i hate you!

guys are created by the devil.
to hurt and kill.
they give you candies to lure you to hell.

but i cant stop liking you.
i dont know why.

tell me,
am i annoying?
tell me,
why.
explain to me.

you,the one who opened up my heart
to boys again.
but it is also you,who is gonna make me
close it up again.

i have 2 more tries.
i cannot be put through such
pain anymore.i just cannot..

because i do not want to lose you ever

2008-06-11T07:16:54Z

somehow i feel that something isn't right.
that what i'm feeling i've felt once before.
but somehow i cannot pin point what is it that i am so afraid of.

i am wondering, is it you?
you, who i am currently so amazed at how much
i have fallen for you.
suddenly i wanna pull out.but something keeps
drawing me to you.
i wonder, what is it?

and i realised.
we were not what we used to be.
you are not as friendly towards me as you once were.
why?
or is it just my imagination.
because you are in year 2 now,and many projects
await you.

you.someone i know from the start,
i shouldn reach.but i did.
you,my superman.
you, the one whom i thought might just be the one who'll save me.

but maybe i thought wrong.
maybe, i should back off.
i'm not ready at all, to be hurt again.

no, i have no such energy left.
it's not easy living a day, not thinking of you.
cos when i do, the thought just makes me smile.
it's not my will that i do so. it just appears, almost
automatically, in fact.

i believe that you are different.
from the bottom of my heart i do.
but what kind of boy are you really?

i have no clue.
you're so out of my league.
so unique.
so bright.
so cute,almost all of the time.

but i cant help but think,
i've played so many games.
until i know not the meaning of love.

i've played so many 'let's pretend'
till i know not what is reality and what is fantasy.

i thought, from the start. fate was what made me meet you.
i thought that maybe oneday, you will be the one who'll save me.

but i realised, last night.
that no, fate never was kind to me.
played and toyed with me.
that was fate's game for me.

i shouldn trust fate.
i shouldn trust anyone.
and yet i still do.

yes, youre the one who makes me so high
till the smile you gave me never fades.
but you.you are also the one, that may break me oneday.
till, i by myself, will have to piece back myself all over again.

i will try once more.to ask you out.
understand you.make sure that i am safe.
yes, i am selfish arn't i?

but i want to be the one that will
always be there for you.
always be beside you.
when you get angry.
when you want to cry.
when youre happy and care not about the rest of the world.
when youre sad and think the world is out to get you.
when youre frightened as if someone is out to kill you,hurt you.
when youre inspired and your world becomes nothing but you and
the thing that inpires you.
when youre tired and just want to rest like as if you've been carrying the world
upon your shoulders and now they've burdened you.

when you feel all these things and more,
i want to be there.even if you dont need me,dont want me.
i want to be there for you.
i really do. with all my heart.
and maybe now i can say,
that maybe i am,more then a little,
in love with you.

i promise you, i will help you through all that you feel.
i promise you, i will protect you.
i promise you, even if you turn into a devil, i will never hate you.
i will never leave you. because i promise you,
i wont ever leave your side.

believe me please?

but then, hear me,
before all those,
let me gain trust in you.
let me feel safe with you.
let me,allow me, to be sure
i wont be hurt by you.

for even if i say i am brave,
i am not.

i will tell you soon,
about how i am amazed at how much i have fallen for you.

i will reveal to you,
the secrets of the second button.

i will. soon.
soon.is all i can say.
this is one promise, that i am not sure if i will be able to keep.
but soon. is one word in that sentence is one promise i will keep.
i will tell you of how i feel.
it's only time.i will tell you.
but you will never know when.

till then,
enjoy my guessing game.
the game i play only with you.
i have dropped so many hints.
have you gotten my clue?
if not, you still have time.
keep guessing.
cos suspense, is the game in line.

you really have captured me whole.
it's getting dangerous for me.
but understand me,
there's so many things about me you have yet to know

the opposite of love isn't hate,
but rather indifference abandonment.
-osen opening song.
[odore - english meaning:dance]

skystealer @ 2008-05-20T20:36:00

2008-05-20T12:50:19Z

LAST

1. Friend you saw: jasveer

2. Talked to on the phone: daryl

3. Text: daryl

T O D A Y

1. Wearing: Clothes

2. Better than yesterday: No

T O M O R R O W

1. Is: wednesday

2. Got plans: no

3. Dislikes about tomorrow: school

F A V OR I T E!

1. Number/s: 7

2. Color: White

3. Season: autum and spring.

C U R R E N T L Y

1. Missing someone: yes(:
2. Mood: not sure
3. Wanting: to move forward like everyone else.

Q U E S T I O N S / A N S W E R S

Q: 1st thing you did this morning:

A: got out of bed

Q: Last thing you ate and drank:

A: water

Q: What's annoying you right now?:

A: stuff

Q: Do you support long distance

relationships?

A: No

Q: Is there a person who is on your

mind right now?

A: Yes(:

Q: Do you think that person is

thinking of you too?

A: haha. i dont think so.

Q: Where was the last place you went

to?

A: compass library.

Q: Do you smile often?

A: can say(:

Q: Are you a friendly person?

A: maybe?(:

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last

night?

A: Mine

Q: What color of shirt are you wearing?

A: blue

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?

A: i forgot.

Q: When was the last time you saw

your dad?

A: just now.

Q: Do you get angry easily?

A: no.

Q: What were you thinking about before

you went to sleep?

A: stuff and ((:

Q: What song are you listening to?

A: prisoner of love by utada hikaru

Q: Are you in love at the moment?

A: maybe.

Q: Have you ever really cried your

heart out?

A: yea.

Q: Have you ever cried on your

friend's shoulder?:

A: no i dun remember.

Q: Do you cry when you get an injury?

A: no.

Q: Who can always make you happy?:

A:friends and ((:

Q: Do you wish you were happier?:

A: definately!

Q: Can music make you happy?

A: sometimes.

HATE SECTION

Q: Who do you actually hate?

A: someone.

Q: Have you ever made a hit list?

A: no.

Q: Are you a mean bully?:

A: no.

1. When did you meet the first person

on your featured friends list?

what featured friends?

2. What about the 2nd person?

3. The 3rd?

4. Thee 4th?

5. How about the 5th?

6. And the 6th?

7. Who has you on their featured

friends list?

i dont know.

don't you give up!

2008-05-20T12:25:15Z

i'm addicted to this drama(:
even though i swear it is scary.

i promise,
if the devil takes your soul,
i'll wack him for you(:
okay?
and if he refuses to let you go,
i'll let him take my soul,
in exchange for yours(:

is that okay?

p.s: ** see i'm being a good girl and not msg you!(:
haha. you too yea. i'll save your soul too if i have to!(:

jasveer,
thank you much.
for lots!
you know what i mean(:

my baby is spoilt! )):

2008-05-16T14:31:41Z

MY IPOD CRASHED ON ME!!!
i think its dead!
its like off and it doesn want to on again!

cryyyssssssss---

T_T

):

crys-

whines-

i need it now!

my baby number one needs the hospital urgently.
hahaha.

bye for now then(:

tmr is malacca trip!yayy!
SHOPPING!(:

p.s: i miss him?(:
haha. he makes me so happy.
but the world cant be trusted anymore.
so i need to like him with to some extent(:

haha(:

I LOVE YOU!(:

2008-05-14T09:23:36Z

i love you!

you make me happy.

but because i love you,

i'll be understanding.

i know you are busy and have been bombarded with stupid projects,

so i will be a good girl and not message you so often.

and because i love you,
i will try to be as understanding as i can be((:

<3

skystealer @ 2008-05-14T17:11:00

2008-05-14T09:19:23Z

I will be understanding and not message you for awhile okay.
i know i've been annoyingly messaging you random stuff,
so i will stop because you have projects.
i'll be a good girl and entertain myself while you are busy((:

i will be bored and all cause you're busy,but after your projects are done,
lets go out okay?!((:

results were bad.sighs.

i do hope what norani said was right.
i do hope you have abit of feelings.

but i'm not sure if this year is the best year to tell you.
because there's already alot on my mind..

but.i stiil love you!((:

haha. happy happy happy!(:

you really make me happy you know that?(:

word association game!
tall -> boy -> love -> happiness
((:

<3

i miss you

2008-05-09T16:39:43Z

i can only see you saving me.

would you please?

save me from myself?

you said once to me you would.

please?

i need you now.

to be able to lie,is a talent.

2008-05-09T16:37:26Z

watched another drama today.
liar game. im not done watching it.
but the more i watch, the more i realise.

you need brains and guts to live in this world.
if you want to follow your heart and not be corrupted
by the world.you need guts to stand up for yourself.

and sadly, i don't have enough of both.
so, who should i trust?
to save me?

even if you're naive and too honest for your own good,
if there was someone who wouldn't betray you, even if they know
they can cheat you and deceive at any one time and leave you all by
yourself to cope with whatever matter[good or bad], then i guess
that is good.

but even that i do not have.

maybe, i won't be able to follow my heart.
maybe i'm already losing it.
maybe, just maybe.

proposal daisakusen! <3

2008-05-09T10:40:45Z

watching proposal daisakusen for the 2nd time today(:
i really can't help but fall in love with this too-romantic-for-my-liking kind of show.
this one is different. not because yamashita looks uber cute and small-boyish. but
i guess because i'm envious? haha.

to have someone like that as a boyfriend is wow(:
small-boyish, tries to make her happy, quarrel yet playful, quarrel yet in the end
tries to make her smile. ahhh- it would be nice right?hahaha.

'Not being able to find things is so ken-zou.
if you went, 'it's here!' and found it for me,
i would've married you right away.' -the girl

'so it'll be okay if i search the world
and find your shoe one day, right?' -the boy's reply.

ahhhhh!!! so cute righhttt?((:

cos they were at the beach and the wave took her shoe away,
so she was upset.then the boy tried to find it but cannot.
faints- im definately being totally dramatic today.haha(:

i'm gonna get my bucket bag from my cousin yos!(:
if anyone wants to buy,tell me? my cousin is selling them.
15 to 17 dollars(:
ahha.i'm helping her ask around cos she just got started with these
kinds of stuff((:

p.s: i still miss you! ):
      i really wanna go out with you again!
      please ask me? hahaha.
      i tried asking you, but you always never give me an answer.
      you always skip the qn and ask about smth else. why?

drama drama drama!(:

2008-05-09T07:04:27Z

watched proposal daisakusen special today(:

i love it to bits!ahhh~ it's really nice know!(:

so cliche,yet not. haha. sometimes i hate myself so being overly mushed up.
hahaha.eh!but it was really romantic!(: haha.

i will definately marry a japanese guy one day!
zettai![ definately!] ((:

i love dramas,did i tell you?hahahaa.
i proudly proclaim that i am a drama addict!hahaha.

(:

ta ta for now then!